LNO was so amazing last night and it was so great to actually have it hit about how a man is supposed to treat you. Like listening to the guys talk about relationships and things from their point of view and especially hearing Eric talk about April, just wow that's all I can say about how a relationship is supposed to work.
It helps you realize what you should actually be looking for in a relationship, which in turns shows that I'm not entirely ready yet, I still need to search in myself and God to find out exactly what I need. Like i want someone i can grow with in God, i want to be like my parents, they've been together for so long and yet still do bible studies together and ya there's hard times but those are always there...no matter what but it's the fact that there is commitment, but it's also a commitment with God.
It's so good that I figured that out, yet it makes me sad to know that someone I've been spending time with and wanted to get to know and possibly date, can't happen now, might not ever happen, one of those things you have to give to God even though it's so difficult. :/
Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting. Psalm 139:23-24
